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You don't change like this
Unless something dies inside
I stayed when I should have run
Held the line until it cut through bone

Kept believing in better days
While breaking quietly alone
I learned how to speak and half truths
So nobody heard me crack

I called it growth but it was just survival
Learning now not to collapse
I asked for help, I waited my turn
I kept the faith until it burned

Something in me stopped asking why
If you're looking for who I used to be
You're too late, I put him in the ground
Myself and let the voices have their way

Stay back

I don't pray the same anymore
I don't ask to be understood
I stopped trying to be the answer

For people who never would
They say I change like it's a warning
Like I should feel ashamed
But you don't get to name the damage

When you watched it happen
And stayed
The mask isn't hiding my face
It's keeping it intact

It holds together what was left
After everything cracked
This is what I'm becoming
Live with this disgrace

You don't get to mourn what you abandoned
You don't get to pray for me now
You don't get to call this a fall
You watched me bleed in real time

And didn't move away
Let them have their way
If you're looking for who I used to be
You're too late, I put him in the ground

Myself and let the voices have their way
I tried to stay light in a world that feeds on dark
I tried to stay soft while it sharpened my heart
This isn't corruption, it's consequence

This is what remains when silence learns defense
If you're looking for who I used to be
You're too late, I put him in the ground
Myself and let the voices have their way

I didn't disappear, I didn't break away
I stayed alive by letting something else take its place
If you didn't lose me
You're just too late